I dread writing and fear the times when I have to share my writing with others. Whether it is progress reports, a formal email, or a blog post, I have anxiety about other people reading my writing. I stress that others will quickly find comma splices or judge me for poor word choice. I truly worry that people might think I am stupid because of my writing skills. In fact I have worried about composing this post since the moment I signed up to write it. However, I write as a model for my students because this is me taking a risk and accepting that this post is probably full of grammatical mistakes.
My fearful journey with writing began in Ms. Griffin’s Second Grade classroom when I was diagnosed with dyslexia. Despite teachers, professors, tutors, friends, and family dedicating countless hours trying to help me develop my writing skills, twenty-three years later I still get that same uneasy feeling in my stomach when I know someone else is going to read my writing. However, it is that same nauseous feeling that helps me empathize with my students when they fear taking risks with their learning or worry about making mistakes. While Michelle and I constantly remind students they need to take risks to grow and that making mistakes is okay, I thought it was time to model risk taking. So this post is for the twenty kiddos that enter my room each morning. This is Miss Rankin taking a risk in order to grow as a teacher, to flourish.
Learner, Thinker, Writer: Mary Jacob Rankin serves Trinity School as a First Grade Teacher @maryjacobr